Amen, Brother Beacon!!
This is my story! This is my song!
"My song is love unknown,
My Savior’s love to me,
Love to the loveless shown,
That they might lovely be.
O who am I that for my sake
My Lord should take frail flesh and die?" (Samuel Crossman, hymn writer, "My Song Is Love Unknown," stanza one)
I remember it like it was yesterday--the winter of 2010. I had just gone through a major manic phase and fallen so low through being re-medicated and feeling the brokenness of my own mind. But as I heard the words of this hymn and was in a quiet place with Jesus, I fell to my knees and wept tears of grateful realization of the infinite love of Jesus and the simultaneous conviction of my sinfulness and helplessness. As Jesus melted my heart, a spring of love was awakened in my soul through His grace by the Holy Spirit that would lead me in a path of complete healing from bipolar disorder in 2011 as I would that year read the Bible through and begin to diligently apply the principles of NEWSTART: Nutrition, Exercise, Water, Sunshine, Temperance, Air, Rest, Trust in God's Power. Healing is deep and lasting when it it is rooted in an overflow appreciation of the loveliness of Jesus, and I am SO SO GRATEFUL to be able to close 2019 beholding Jesus and looking forward to seeing EVEN MORE of the loveliness of Jesus' character in 2020. May you let Jesus awaken in you the healing experience wrought out only by beholding Him in His infinite grace!!!
"The woman had stood before Jesus, cowering with fear. His words, 'He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone,' had come to her as a death sentence. She dared not lift her eyes to the Saviour's face, but silently awaited her doom. In astonishment she saw her accusers depart speechless and confounded; then those words of hope fell upon her ear, 'Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.' Her heart was melted, and she cast herself at the feet of Jesus, sobbing out her grateful love, and with bitter tears confessing her sins." {The Desire of Ages, page 462, paragraph 1}
"This was to her the beginning of a new life, a life of purity and peace, devoted to the service of God. In the uplifting of this fallen soul, Jesus performed a greater miracle than in healing the most grievous physical disease; He cured the spiritual malady which is unto death everlasting. This penitent woman became one of His most steadfast followers. With self-sacrificing love and devotion she repaid His forgiving mercy." {The Desire of Ages, page 462, paragraph 2}
This is how I experience life--an overflow tide of gratitude for how Jesus spared me from the living death of mental illness, won my heart to Him by a miracle of His grace, transformed my heart and mind to want Him first and best in all things, and graciously has filled me with all of the fruits of the Spirit so that not one is missing as long as I am abiding in Him by a living faith surrender. This is the testimony of Jesus--what He has done to save me. What is the testimony He has given you? It will be unique to your needs and weaknesses, but it will always glorify Him and reveal that He is a complete Savior! Hallelujah!!!